By Marty Hon. Click here for the website!I know I have my Exercise in Dreaming blog, but I couldn't remember enough details about my dream last night to piece together any sort of narrative. But last night's dream is making me feel weird today. Lately I've been having dreams where I'm convinced it's real life. Mostly mundane, I dream I wake up (from where I've actually been sleeping) and go about my business. Usually there's some sort of difficulty, like I'm having an incredibly hard time escaping sleep's clutches, as if my eyes refuse to fully open and stay open. At some point, I really do wake up and I'm surprised to realize that was all a dream. I will have performed some of the boring tasks life demands such as showering, brushing my teeth, discussing plans with Jonathan, etc and I wake up to find it was all a dream.
That happened again last night/this morning. My alarm went off, I shut it off and got up. This is what awake Christine realizes was the indicator that it was a dream: I had gum in my mouth and it was stuck to my permanent retainer and when I finally managed to get it out, a black feather came with it. I was horrified because I'd just woken from a dream in which I was in a haunted place and being attacked by something and only escaped after biting it and it was covered in black feathers. After taking the dogs out, going to the bathroom and grabbing my towel to go shower, I really wake up. I was so surprised. I thought I'd actually been awake and doing those things. Luckily, no black feather was really in my mouth.
However, I have this residual ill-feeling all day now. I described it to Jonathan as the constant feeling that there's something lurking just out of sight. As if a memory is sitting outside the scope of my mind, barely forgotten. I'm waiting for something, but I don't know what. The dogs have been acting strangely all day, too. I choose to attribute that to them just being dumb dogs.
It's just so weird. I need a job, something to do during the day. More structure in my life so I don't sit around this house, spending hour after hour with only animals for company.
I have to give two speeches today in class.I'm a little nervous about them because I always blush when speaking in class and the knowing that I'm blushing makes me blush even harder. Ugh. Hopefully all the practicing I'm doing will help me feel more comfortable and less prone to a hot face.
Weird post, sorry. I just needed to word vomit all of that out there.
That happened again last night/this morning. My alarm went off, I shut it off and got up. This is what awake Christine realizes was the indicator that it was a dream: I had gum in my mouth and it was stuck to my permanent retainer and when I finally managed to get it out, a black feather came with it. I was horrified because I'd just woken from a dream in which I was in a haunted place and being attacked by something and only escaped after biting it and it was covered in black feathers. After taking the dogs out, going to the bathroom and grabbing my towel to go shower, I really wake up. I was so surprised. I thought I'd actually been awake and doing those things. Luckily, no black feather was really in my mouth.
However, I have this residual ill-feeling all day now. I described it to Jonathan as the constant feeling that there's something lurking just out of sight. As if a memory is sitting outside the scope of my mind, barely forgotten. I'm waiting for something, but I don't know what. The dogs have been acting strangely all day, too. I choose to attribute that to them just being dumb dogs.
It's just so weird. I need a job, something to do during the day. More structure in my life so I don't sit around this house, spending hour after hour with only animals for company.
I have to give two speeches today in class.I'm a little nervous about them because I always blush when speaking in class and the knowing that I'm blushing makes me blush even harder. Ugh. Hopefully all the practicing I'm doing will help me feel more comfortable and less prone to a hot face.
Weird post, sorry. I just needed to word vomit all of that out there.
